my way of life is changing
as i get older i seem to change the way i do things
normally i need lots of sleep
but now i get none and i am still moving
i normally need family to talk to
i no longer need them

i though those dark thoughts were gone away
never to bother me again
but their not
even if i change my life i still have to fight
those dark evil thoughts i hold within

i was told to dumb the baggage
dump my feeling and emotions
but can anyone actually do that?
get rid of years of pain, lonelyness, regret

my way of life is changing
but i am not
same as usual, same as alwalys
alone as alwalys
as i alwalys will