the pain is back
so severe it burns through my soul
it is unstoppable
and this i know
but i fight it
even knoing it is a lost cause
how long i have i don't know
how long until i cannot move
how long until i am dead
and how long until everyone deserts me
this is not right
it is not a lie
its is the cold truth of order
and order is a cruel mistress
the pain is her weapon
she beats us into submission
until we are about to pass out and then she stops,
stops for a short time
and then starts again
until the next break
order is the way of god
but the price is heavy for order
the pain is too much
must i move to chaos?
must i quit and say the hell with it?
only time will tell
and that time is fast comming