i finally understand
my place in life
i understand everything now
everything i never wanted to know
and everything i did
i was meant to be alone
and die alone
and this i now accept
life is darkness
it will eventually catch up with everyone
and they will understand
as i now do
i also understand my feelings
the fact the i love
and the fact the i care
but i must make a sacrifice
i must do something for someone
and that is to hold my feelings in
give the time she needs
and get the time i need
or i will die