I see the world
its a blue ball of life
withing myself is the black,
the blackness of the earth is within me
i take everything in and i soak it up
but i can no longer soak up anymore
i have no more room for anymore sadness,
regret,
pain.

Ive lived a life of choices,
and my choices has effected everyone around me,
and myself
The choices were wrong
and i can not redo them
so i have one more choice to make
and i stand by myself to make it

Do i leave everyone here behind,
and start over in a new place?
Will anyone care if i leave?
the choice is mine and mine alone.
But ive made too many choices that have hurt,
hurt those around me

I see the world anew
i see the different paths
and i am at the crossroads.

I can leave this place
or i can stay and try to make it better,
like ive been doing over the past year
the choice is mine,
but i am scared....
scared to make it alone